The idea of surgery scares the living hilauhdslifhadif out of me.. i’ve never had to go to the hospital for anything, and this is extremely frightening. Yes, its only my knee, but I think what scares me the most is not being able to walk. BEING ACTIVE IS MY LIFE. Everyone who knows me can contest to that fact. Being out for 6-8 months is literally killing me a little bit inside. Most people can say its no big deal. No, this is my life. I dont know anything else. FINALLY working my butt off to start.. making U19 && U23.. i’ve come such a long way since I started and this is just too depressing. I just cant accept it.. not being able to do certain things makes me want to do them even more. My parents are taking it harder than me.. they wont let me play anymore, wont let me drive.. or DO ANYTHING.. even if the doctor said I could. I know everyones just looking out for me.. but seriously? just relax, its my body.. and if I can handle it, I CAN HANDLE IT. haha.